Word on the street has it that I'm back on CAMA.

Here's the truth: I never really left.

That little bit of me that I instilled into the group I live every day doing anyway. I'm not talking about substance abuse, or the spotlight. I'm talking good solid martial artistry every moment I can spare, mentally and physically.

I've had a few critics come my way questioning my intent. I have nothing to say to them, because my intent is unquestionable. Those who matter to me know me, and know why I made this move. And they support me. Those who don't should really consider how much they think they know me.

Beyond that, it is odd, it is interesting, and it is invigorating to be rank and file among the team. Now I can explore the art in my own way, while continuing to interact with other styles and people of different walks of life and share the joy it brings. What better way to reap the fruits of your labor than to be a part of the benefiting membership?

Muthafuckin' CAMATIME

I'm finding myself feeling less compelled to connect with people. I'm retreating further and further with no compunction of looking back. This isn't an exercise in self-pity, or a god complex where I find no one is worth my time. Maybe I need to make up for something for myself before I can start looking outward again. Excuse me if it seems like I'm keeping you at arm's distance. And please don't sympathize with me or try to give me advice.

Another half of me totally feels like I sound like a total asshole, because I'm acting like the douche bags I like to make fun of for doing exactly this--the people who go black and white and think in degrees of hopelessness. What is this foreign thought process that has invaded my brain?

I like being happy, and doing fun things, adventures, meeting new people and making great friends. But I think I kind of need it to fall into my lap these days. I don't go out of my way for anything. What it amounts to is this listless intertia through the days, which when you put it that way sounds like a grand way to waste time.

Don't pay any attention to me. I think I'm still recentering myself after my approximated "emancipation".

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